And this is why it has taken me so long to start a blog...I see my friend's blogs and I think, "Wow, that's a great idea, I should do that (write my thoughts about 'life as Michael and I know it' and keep my loved ones informed on our happenings) OR just start one to have a place to write", but then I get hung up on the idea of the effort I would have to put into it, including keeping it updated, making sure that my grammar is correct (which I'm sure 8 times out of 10 there will be something awry), that I write about something that others would be interested in reading, and on and on the anxious thoughts go. On the flip side, not caring what others think, and just write! It may be good for my soul as though I were talking to a girlfriend and the thoughts finally making sense as they're coming out and decluttering my brain, finally! For clarity (to myself), the struggle is write for others or write for myself, or find a balance between the two.
As I read back over what I just wrote it is even confusing to myself but it reminds me of a verse that can often be a tongue twister when read out loud (Romans 7) which is also about the "Struggle Within", although not meant to be a confusing one. It's pretty clear actually, about two desires warring within each person belonging to God. One being our "sin-nature" that we're born with that wants to do everything for SELF and the other our "Spirit-self" we are given when being born again that desires to know and please God at the cost of dying to our "self". It's a constant battle, but thanks be to God that through Christ Jesus, it is not one we have to lose!!! He already fought and won the battle and because I belong to Him, I too, through His Holy Spirit's strength Who lives in me, can be victorious! Hallelujah!
So, all that to say, I am overcoming the struggle within and getting on with it...My first official blog :)
